Hello… you said that relationships kinda just happen and I agreed with you cause for me that's what last year felt like. That's what happened, I don't regret it. Know to love and not to be loved back is one kind of pain, but to continue to engage is torture for the heart. Makes it hard to coexist with you
The reason is I can't coexist with you if I don't think there's a future and I don't think there's a future anymore. You've moved to wanting to be completely professional and you feel the need to hide your personal life from me. To be in this position from what we were hurts a lot, and it kills me cause you're the person I've needed in my life for a long time.
You've helped me so much this summer personal growth that I'm forever grateful for you but that's causing me to want to be in your life even more. I want someone who'll challenge me, help me grow, break barriers, learn new things, discover new things, and achieve new heights. As much as it hurts that you hide your story from me, it's teaching me a lesson. I wish you were doing it out of desire and not fear. So for that reason I can't continue to employ you
It's been my actions to cause you to put up a barrier. I also know you're your own person and I can't force you to view me differently or control you. Tho I don't have to live hurting this much, it hurts me to not be where we were personally, but you won't engage that way cause you know how I feel for you and it's not reciprocated
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