Dwight Hyde posted: " I question why I feel I must share some of my most sacred moments? The same thought always come to mind though. I do it to connect to that one other soul who questions am I the only one who feels this way. Rest assured you are not alone. Photo by Au" Faded Jeans Living
I question why I feel I must share some of my most sacred moments? The same thought always come to mind though. I do it to connect to that one other soul who questions am I the only one who feels this way. Rest assured you are not alone.
I'll open my heart and let you peak inside only if you promise not to write I'm sorry Dwight in the comments. I'm not looking for that. This is but a glimpse of life that combined with the other ingredients make it a whimsical trip never knowing what's next and appreciating each moment and respecting what's being presented and finding The Gold in each moment.
After each peak are valleys to descend back into. It's just natural and after completing my latest journey, I did indeed find myself hiking back down with some new wisdom or I guess more of an observation which helps me to continue to unfold. As my 12 weeks of my jumpstart to wellness came to an end and I was high on all that I accomplished and celebrating the final challenge, I suddenly became sad. Most everyone in my group were sharing stories and pictures of being with their spouses or significant others and at that moment…I felt terrible alone.
I craved to have someone who was completely in love with me to celebrate with. To have someone who saw all the hard work I put in each day and whom cheered me on with love and encouragement. But when when I finished our last challenge of completing a half marathon over 12 hours last weekend, there was no other soul at the "finish line".
This is the first time since being single these type of thoughts have sneaked through my back door. My guard was definitely down from completing this particular physical challenge. Emotions run high after pushing yourself to your physical limits and beyond. So there you have it. A moment of many of life's moments of sadness we dance with. It's actually quite beautiful to be so human and get these wonderful opportunities to experience. To not run away from but rather run toward and embrace.
It's been 7 years since my divorce and I've grown in so many ways since, and completely am enjoying all the freedom I have each day to be 100% me with no worries on how that's playing out with another soul. But at that particular moment I thought how neat it would be to have been able to share that with someone who truly loved me. Thoughts then raced through my head of how as I continue to age this would continue to be a theme. Having experiences with no one to share, sure I have friends who love and support but I'm talking about that other level of being in love and committed to another good and bad…completely.
Will I be signing up for a dating app anytime soon? Hell no! I'm still breaking it down and digesting if you will. One must be grateful and sit and learn from these glimmers of sadness.
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