An ode to personal growth, making tough choices, and speaking my truth. Wherever there is - as we have no idea where life will take us, why, or who it's surrounded by.
3rd grade!
Belief first, correction later. I saw this on a post and it hit me like a ton of bricks. How often do I correct mini before I believe what she is saying? Guilty. We probably all do this - we fact check others before acknowledging they have a right to their opinion and, more importantly, a right to their feelings. The post went on to say our children need us to sit in the discomfort with them, to know we care about their feelings, PRIOR to reasoning with them. How many people know anxiety is not reasonable? Hands high. I don't need someone to say my thoughts are not realistic, I'm well aware they're not!, what I need is reassurance I will be ok.
Along the lines of being ok - middle of last week, I very nearly lost my life. Ok ok, so I'm dramatic. As I've stated before, the final year of my dissertation is comprised of 15 week semesters. Last week was Wk 14. Until it wasn't. I received an email stating Friday, 16 August was the due date for both Wk 14 and 15. WHICH MEANT...I was required to submit my manuscript more than a week before I intended.
One week. Just one week. Sounds minimal, right? If you don't keep meticulous planning calendars and structure your entire existence around writing a 600+ page manuscript, then sure, it's probably minimal. Not for me! So, I cried. I got frustrated. A little angry, too, perhaps. Then I cancelled all my plans and got busy. Suffice to say, in 3 days, I completed a manuscript worthy of expedited submission and now we wait. 14 weeks, 296 pages, 69.3K words. Easy, right?!
The good news is I get an unexpected break. And I purchased a pair of shoes as a reward. Short of the submission being classified as an official failure, I'm in good shape for the shape I'm in.
Correction: Hahaha I jest. I made another miscalculation and I don't have a week break. It appears Wk 14 and 15 are jammed together (aka were due Friday) because the next course starts the following Monday. i.e., today. Wonderful. Lovely.
"There" is wherever life takes you and I'm just along for the ride, it seems.
Wk 14/15: added 16 pages
P.S. this is the final iteration of the chart. It served its purpose and now I feel like it's more of a chore/unneeded pressure to include it. Thanks for playing along. Surely I can find something else to entertain you. Maybe I should be monitoring my stress levels more?
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I ask you -
Are you a corrector or a listener?
How surprised would you have been?
Tell me about your most recent unexpected event!
(The post Wherever There Is first appeared here at Running on Fumes.)
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