Bah. I have entered another phase where eating is especially hard. And yet I am constantly hungry. When I do need to eat every 6 hours it feels urgent. I call this "regression".
It has been a challenging day. As we slide into the evening I am hoping it will improve. Lethargy and anxiety. I went for a hike thinking it would help, and it might have a little.It did not help that much.
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It is now a day later (I have been rushing through awful eating experiences and not able to do deep dives), and what did help was going over to B's. But it still took forever.
Soon I will type up some reddit wisdom I found for myself and others. That will be a thoughtful laptop affair. As opposed to these little rush-jobs where I am trying to pretend that I am not eating.
WordPress is terrible for 2 things: music journalism and attracting other recovery people. I guess music people and addicts mostly hang out on reddit.
Judging by the Discover tab, wordpress is great for a lot of light-hearted drivel.
"Aye, the merry birds flock all around my yard this morn', and didja know I'm working on my deck? Lo! Why, here's a picture...it's almost done. While I've got ya here, let me post a puzzle game. Oh, and here's a joke and a dance for ye eyes!"
Comments:
"Oh, haha, Robert, you're ever the greatest!"
"Robert! Aye, you've done it again! You madman, you! How your posts delight me so!"
Third commenter responds with a poem. Roberts responds with a compliment and a hearty name.
*I pulled the name Robert from my ass, I'm honestly not targeting a specific blogger here.
That's what the Discover tab looks like to me. These alien people, apparently well-adjusted and happy, kissing each other's asses and showing no hint of mental health struggles, eating disorders, alcohol recovery, sex, good drugs (psychedelics!), or rock n' roll. Or anything of any true and sometimes painful substance, really. And then they get 300 comments!
Who are these strange creatures, why are they so popular and can I please get a talented witch to resurrect Hunter S. Thompson, more my type, so that I can see exactly what he would write about Donald Trump?
-Z
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