When I saw this passage I realized I am all of this: I value my voice and my energy, and I've shifted into a better person. This shift shows growth and the wisdom that comes from aging.
I think my aging path was a bit different from others because of my brain tumor. It was benign and it raised havoc with my physical body - causing weakness on my right side - and it also changed my personality. What I've noticed most since my surgery is that I'm more patient and tolerant. I used to have these little microbursts of anger for years before the surgery, and since then, I'm so much better. I also have a much clearer perspective on life.
I often wonder about these changes in me. Were they a result of age or was it because I had a tumor removed that was impacting me.
I like to think it's both. Learning I had a brain tumor, the journey that ensued to get it removed, and the recovery impacted me. It caused me to be more grateful for my life and to learn the value of living well - being thankful for all I have and the many blessings in my life. Because of this new perspective, I realized my value. I also learned that my energy was too important to waste on people who didn't want it or value me.
I believe that my shift began the day I heard I had a brain tumor, and aging - becoming mid-fifty-something - has contributed to my growing and maturing, and that's good.
I love my life. I have been struggling with some mild depression since my mom died, but trying to remain positive and seeing my life as a blessing has helped me.
I have days where I struggle. But surrounding myself with good people, talking, and asking for help when I need it has helped. And I pray. I pray for strength, happiness, clarity, and joy.
My shift has been good. And for that, I'm happy. I like the new me, and I have many people in my life who like the new me too. And that's a blessing.
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