losing everything would have been a disaster (fire, the author's deep fear, can engulf a building in five minutes - thirteen, we counted) and then once outside, realizing smoke in a neighboring apartment was turning to flames within the building no explanation why the threat of losing my worldly goods didn't upset me as much as the basic ineptitude that causes delays like that to happen goodbye, manuscripts, notebooks, early drafts, letters, addresses . a writer's constant fear  against the slow art itself, you know, civilly